The Letters Never Sent
Dear_____, I hope you are doing well. I am writing this letter to get some things off of my chest. I most likely will not send it, but, a part of me wants to just slip it in an envelope and mail it anyways. We have never had a close relationship of any kind from the time I was little until now. I believe that probably has something to do with my mom, my dad (the child you didn’t want), and the attitude I was born with lol. I have heard that A was your favorite and dad was an accident in an already stressful time. Then came V and your idyllic image of a functional family was created. I have attempted over the years to try to connect with you but only out of an obligation to the potential guilt I might feel later. But as I have lived most of my life without your connection, I don’t feel any desire to waste any more of my time or energy to connect with a person like you. I don’t feel like I am missing out on anything except the crippling anxiety that comes with being too clo...